This Changes Me

This changes me.

the way I wait and want

to see you standing, smiling, taunting.

The way I am, I think I feel

the way I’m sad.

So crazy – unreal.

The way you came and did and said

Nothing at all to fill my head –

But still you’re here, a while,

you’ve been

You’ve been yourself

I’ve been willing…

This changes me

how easily, I looked

confused. I felt amused.

The way I sit, I think, I feel

I’m down.

The way I’m struck ‘cause

you’re not around – my frown

unsound, my thoughts

so lost. I think

I’ve lost my mind,

this time. So unstable

my behavior. So sweet

to savor

this fantasizing…

This changes me

my foolish games

I play, and play –

the worlds I build to

block the world that charges

in my face.

The looks I freely

give away,

and

the secret things

I have tucked away… my

mind, my all

my heart betrays

My truth delayed…

I am changed.