When I dreamed this, I felt so fulfilled
Like I could rest for the first time,
The depth of me realized.
My hero could see right
Through the very heart of me
Sheltering every part of me
With words unspoken, materializing
The very love I need.
And then you came, and rousted
This dream in me again
First as an honest friend
And then, with my heart on the mend
You stepped right in
And as I walked with you
I saw in you
A builder, willing to pull through
In spite of me
Constantly
Wearing and tearing away
At my inability
To accept the good you brought to me.
But now, oh now
You are so far from a fantasy.
No longer a knight
Part nightmare, part
Of the reality
That one sees when
Two lives try to form
Into one being
I thought our essences
Would be so intertwined
What was yours?
– now mine
And in me
An endless drink
Of all you would ever need
But your life remains your own
And my soul is already
Dried up and worn
I have nothing left
To give, and you
Kept something for yourself
If only I was wise enough to know
This truth before
Freely giving all
Away
Part knight, part nightmare
As all I have now
Are dreams -
Spirited ideas
Without a vat to hold
Or remember
What it is I was looking for
In the first place
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